You're the reason Jesus came

Hey Everyone!

2005-12-31T00:02:00.000-08:00

I got a new blog! So read my posts here from now on.
Love you!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!
WHOOOHOOOO!!!!

God bless

My Christmas

2005-12-30T12:23:00.000-08:00

Merry Jesusmas everybody! How was your Christmas? What did you get? I got a whole bunch of money I have no idea what to do with and a Mp3 player! Whoohooo!

Wow it feels good to be on here again. I haven't posted in a long time!

I got to do a lot of fun things this Christmas. First off I saw Chronicles of Narnia! Which is a GREAT movie. They follow the book really well. And the actors are just about perfect for the movie. I was really happy to have seen it, I had'nt seen a good movie in a while cause lately all they come out with is crud movies if you know what I mean. And Ryan Hill looks just like Edmond from that movie doesn't he?!? I thought that throughout the whole movie. None of my family agreed with me though. Well I'll have to cut this post short. My family wants to watch Lost. It'l be annoying anyways if I tell you all about my Christmas. I did to much stuff to write about. It would be like a mile long post if I wrote about my Christmas. So i'll just post some pictures. My sister got a digital camera for Christmas. So we have been having a lot of fun with it. We got like 200 pictures throughout the week. So here are some pictures of my cousins, aunts and uncles during Christmas. Comment and tell me how your Christmas went!

I hope your Christmas was as filled with many blessings! I Love you!

God bless,

Lora

Aaron

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This is Aaron, my awesome cousin!

Anna

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Anna you're so cool!

My Grandma and Grandpa

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Heh, my Grandma and Grandpa got candy lips and they put them on. I had to get a picture.

My AWESOME Uncle

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This is my awesome uncle.
Yeah...My family's weird...Just wait till you scroll down. It gets worse.

Pippin

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This is our stupid but awesome dog Pippin.

Me

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We were all trying to do our own versions of what Pippin always looks like.

My version of Pippin.

Sara

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Sara's version of Pippin

Anna

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Anna's version of Pippin

My mom

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I don't think my mom knows how to look normal in a picture.

Eric

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Eric making a Chineese face.

Aaron

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Me and Anna were trying to get a picture of Aaron jumping in the air, but it didn't really turn out.

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A picture of me looking down my slinkie.
Click on it to see it up closer. it's wierd.

Me

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I don't really know what to say about this picture...

Aaron

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This is Aaron, another one of my cousins. He is SO COOL!

Sara was mean on this picture

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Sara decided to get a suprise picture as soon as I woke up.

My mom

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My mom wearing Tylers Japan hat.

My cousin Peter

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Meet my awesome cousin Peter.

Carrisa & Ryan

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Ryan & Carrisa, they are going back to Texas today though :(

My brother Ryan

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This is my brother Ryan making a wierd face.

Anna & me

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This is my cousin Anna. She is AWESOME

Merry Jesusmas!

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Hey everybody!

I'm actually going to do a post this time. I ussauly post weird pictures of me, or I post lyrics, surveys or poems. This time i'm going to just randomly talk. So it might get a bit boring. Who ever reads this WHOLE boring post will get a big hug and a high five, and will also by my hero!

Merry Jesusmas! How are you all? I'm really excited, My brother Ryan and his wife Carissa are coming back from Mexico tonight! Woot Woot! So I guess this will be my farewell post. I wont be on the computer for about a week or so. I need to stay off the computer more often, I'm on too much. And I want to spend time with my family the whole week. So yeah, I wont be posting for a while!

Thank you to all you guys who have commented on my lousy posts! I LOVE getting comments, I get excited whenever I get a comment. I realized today how blessed I am. I have so many friends who love and care about me. They have been there for me. Even through the times were I haven't made sense, as in the last couple of months. I just haven't been myself I guess you could say. So thank you to all my friends! I don't deserve half of the things I have! So far this is a very good Christmas. It's wierd cause I've had a horable week. But, I prayed for hours and hours last night, everything changed around today. It's amazing how much power prayer has in it. Wow so i'm probably rambling on and on. Heh, sorry!

Well I was just posting to wish you a Merry Jesusmas! And to let you know that God cares for you and wants the best for you this Christmas. So if your down like I was last night, I encourage you to pray that God would show you all that you have, and that he would show you all that there is to be thankful for. And what a difference you make in this world! I know my friends, and every single person who comments on this blog sure make a difference in my life! Thank you so much again to all my friends! I wouldn't be where I am right now if it wasn't for you all. And for all the freaking AWESOME people who comment on this blog! I love each and every one of you guys! And I wouldn't have this blog without your comments! So thank you!

Wow this post is just wierd, I feel like I'm changing subjects every second! Oh well, It's fun to just do a post and not worry about what others think.

Merry Christmas! I'll post again in a week or more. Love you all so very much!!!

P.S. Leave a comment and tell me how bad this post is on a scale of 1-10. Cause I feel like it's awful.

Although this has NOTHING at all to do with the post above or Christmas. I just had to post this. Here is a really WIERD picture of my mom. It's actually kind of scary. Tell me what you think.

Another Survey

2005-12-19T17:55:00.000-08:00

Everybody seemed to like the last survey, So i'm doing another one.

Name 5 things you want for Christmas

A Starbucks giftcard.
The Skillet worship album.
A Homestarrunner Teen girl squad hoodie.
All the Lifehouse albums.
The movie "While you were sleeping."

Name 5 of your favorite scents

Chocolate.
Vanilla.
Carmel.
Coffee!!
Cappichino.

Name 5 scents you dislike

My dad when he takes his socks off.
My brother after he comes back from mowing lawns.
The Skunk scent.
Milk that has been sitting out for days.
My brothers house, lol.

Name 5 of your favorite youthgroup activities/trips

Student Conference.
C.I.Y.
Formal night out.
Nerf Wars.
Breakaway Retreat

Name 5 movies you like

While you were sleeping.
Big fish.
Lord of the Rings 1,2 and 3.
Harry Potter 1,2,3 and 4.
Spider-man 1 and 2.

Name 5 of your favorite songs

Skillet "Imperfection."
Pillar "Let it out."
Lifehouse "Everything."
Demon Hunter "Undying."
Skillet "Open Wounds."

Name 5 things you want to do before you die

Bring someone to Christ.
Go skiidiving.
Eat junk food non-stop a whole day.
See all my favorite bands at one concert.
Publish my Poetry.

Name 5 of your favorite names

Elijah.
Emma.
Kelsi.
Chloe.
Jack.

Say 5 random things

SPACE MONKEYS!!!
Spotted Zebras.
NIGHT MOMMAS!
....................................
Okay now i'm bored.....

Name 3 of your favorite fruits of the spirit.

Love.
Joy.
Peace.

Well this survey is pretty stupid, I hope you guys will do it anyways!

P.S. I had to show this to everyone, this is what I got from Susanna Magruder for Christmas! Isn't it awesome?!

Merry Christmas! Love you!

Lora

2005-12-18T06:01:00.000-08:00

Skillet "Take"

Take my strength
take my pride
Take my selfishness away
Take my rights
take ambition
Capture me
make me a slave
Break the walls
break my bones
Break my hardened heart
Rip my rule
rip my will
Rip independency apart
Breathe Your life
Breathe Your love
Breathe You breath and I'm sustained

Take my hate
take my hurt
Express healing to my pain
Take my flesh
in all its arrogance
my stability away
Take my life
bring fire
Untill only You remain

Laid out on my face
My tongue longing taste
Of You and Your death
And to know Your name

Accept my gifts
take my crowns
I spread them at your feet
When I bleed
I bleed with joy as I taste Your suffering
Flood life
flood peace
speak acceptance to my shame
Allow me to kneel
allow me to praise
Give me the right to speak Your name

Laid out on my face
My tongue longing to taste
Of You and Your death
And to know Your name.

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Who you Are In Christ

Accepted...

You are God's child.

As a disciple, You are a friend of Jesus Christ.

You have been justified.

You are united with the Lord, and are one with Him in spirit.

You have been redeemed and forgiven of all your sins.

You are complete in Christ.

You have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ.

You are secure...

You are free from condemnation.

God works for your good in all circumstances.

You are free from any condemnation brought against you and you cannot be separated from the love of God.

You have been established, anointed and sealed by God.

You are hidden with Christ in God.

God will complete the good work He started in you.

You are a citizen of heaven.

You have not been given a spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind.

You are born of God and the evil one cannot take you away.

You are significant...

You are a branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of His life.

You have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit.

You are God's temple.

You are a minister of reconciliation for God.

You are seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm.

You are God's workmanship.

You may approach God with freedom and confidence.

You can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you.

Love you guys! I hope you find all of this encouraging.

I love this picture.

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This is the only picture I have ever liked of myeslf.

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Fall down to the ground amidst your throne of grace

Don't live for yourself in this forlorn place

Seek out your Creators matchless face

He'l hold your tired disgraceful hands

He'l strengthen your weary feet so you can stand

Proclaim His Holy name

He'l make your remains whole

Give him your lonesome and solitary dark soul

He'l transform you from the inside out

Don't give up from your lingering doubt

Raise your eyes to the majestic skys

He will listen to your mournful cries

Nobody else will be able to fully understand

The pain that lies in your sinful broken hands.

P.S. Coment any ideas for the poem if you have them.
I'll probably change it around a bit anyways.

Love you guys lots!

God bless,

Lora

Thankyou

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Hey everybody.

I'm doing alot better. But I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my freinds. Thanks to all who have been praying for me, and thankyou so much for the long encouraging coments on my blog. It's amazing how words of encouragment affect me so much.

It's also amazing how things can change around so quickly if you just read the bible and pray. Tuesday and wensday I was really depressed, and then today everything changed. My freinds encouraged me so much to where I went upstairs and just read the bible for hours and hours today. It helped so much, i'm better then I have been in a whole year.

I do still need to stop being afraid of getting close to others, and I need to stop getting so discouraged so easily. But I can't get there in a minute. It's something I have to learn how to do, with Gods help. But thankyou so much to all thoose who have been praying, and commenting on here. You guys have done so much for me, now i wan't to do something for you. So if you have any prayer requests coment them.

Thankyou to all my freinds/family who have encouraged me, and helped me out sooo much lately! With prayer, words, advice, And in so many other ways!

Amy
Taylor
Anna
Brad
Caleb
Hannah
Rachel
Sara
Stevo
Zach

I'm so glad to have you as brothers and sisters in Christ. I've been going through hard times lately, but you guys encourage me through it all, and give me the hope that I lose. Each and every one of you encourages me day by day. Let me know if i can ever do anything for you, anything at all. Love you so much!

God bless

P.S. If you guys have any prayer requests coment them.

Surveys!!

2005-12-07T21:20:00.000-08:00

Everybody has to do theese surveys. Coment what you do.

Hello, I'm: Lora. WHAT'S UP?!?

I hate: Brussel Sprouts.

I love: You!!!

I love to hate: Brussel Sprouts

I hate to love: Junk Food.

I think I'm: Weird

Emo music: is stupid

Hot Topic is: Scary

School is: ANNOYING!

I have alot of: Toe socks and Poetry

My hair color is: It's originally Light Brown. Untill I died it bright blonde a while back.

I think piercings are: Okay. As long as they are kept on the ears.

Rainbows are: NICE!!

Christmas is: Wonderful!

I'm: Uncool

You're: AMAZING!!

Name 5

Name 5 of your favorite bands.

1.Skillet
2.Demon Hunter
3.Lifehouse
4.12 Stones
5.The Cranberries

Name 5 of your favorite drinks.

1.Coke Zero
2.Water
3.Milk
4.Cappachino
5.Coffee

Name 5 of your favorite foods.

1.Pizza
2.Potatoes
3.Chillie Hot Dogs
4.Tuna and Crackers
5.Chicken

Name 5 of your closest friends/family.

1.Eric
2.Taylor
3.Zach
4.Jenni
5.Anna

This or that-

Mcdonalds or Burger King fries? Probably Mcdonalds

Veggies or Fruit? FRUIT!

Junk food or Healthy food? WOOT WOOT! JUNK FOOD!

Rap or Rock? What kind of question is this? Rock of course. I'll choose anything over rap music.

Pink or Black? Black

Punk or Emo? Punk i guess...

Xanga or myspace? Blogspot, heh.

My chemical romance or green day? NEITHER! hate them both.

Yahoo or AIM? Aim

Sharpie or pen? Pen

Love or hate? What kind of question is this?!?! Who accauly wants to go with hate? I'll go with love..

Tons of bracelets or none? A couple maybee.

Painted nails or plain? Plain

Black and white pictures or colored pictures? Colored

Fuse or MTV? Neither. They are both stupid.

Long sleeve or short? Well with the weather this cold, long sleeve. But i like wearing short sleeve better.

What's the...

41. Best feeling ever? Waking up early and seeing snow outside. Or Feeling God's presence in a room.
42. Worst feeling ever? When somebody you love dies or when somebody you love rejects you.
43. Most embarrasing thing you have done? Ran into a wall at student conference.
44. Weirdest thing you have done? The time when I Wore tinker bell pajamas into walmart.
45. Longest freindship you've ever been in? 9 years and still going.
46. Shortest? 2 years
47. Farthest you have gone from home? Washington DC. I think...

Another Post

2005-12-04T15:13:00.000-08:00

I need prayer. I'm not doing to well lately. I'm finding myself hiding everything from everybody. And running from anything that can help me. And i don't know why. I keep doubting my faith in God. It never seems like he's there. I always just feel so hollow and alone. And I don't know what it is, but i don't feel like i belong anywhere. Lately iv'e become so insacure and confused that i don't even know who I am. How to be myeslf. So i just stay quiet. Which is far beyond what I need. There's alotta things going on that I wish I could just talk to somebody too. But I feel like I don't know anybody. I feel I will annoy others if I tell them what's wrong. I'm just tired of always being sad. I'm running from everything that can save me. I'm even doubting God, and his help. I know he's real, and yes i believe in everything about his word. I don't feel like i'm saved though at the same time. Lately iv'e had no desire to live for him. Or to read his word. I'm just hateful, full of hate towards everything. Espessaily life. I just don't know what to do anymore. I also don't wan't people to think I'm sad all the time and trying to get attention. That's another reason I always hide it.
I have amazing and wonderful freinds that would probably listen to my problems. But i can't seem to let anybody help me. It's almost like i wan't to be depressed, i wan't to be this way. Cause I feel like there's no hope of getting out of it. Well i need lots of prayer. I'm tired of being so hopless. Please pray that i won't lose my hope like i have been lately. When i lose my hope i just completly give up on everything. I don't know, i probably sound like a rambling idiot right now. I just need a life. All that I enjoy doing out of the whole week is church and dance sorta. That's only getting out of the house 3 times a week with something i enjoy. And then every single other day besides thoose 3, i'm stuck at home. All i do when i'm here is block all my problems out with the computer. I also hate school, i can't stand studying a minute of it without getting angry. I can't stand who iv'e become. I hide myeslf from others cause i hate who i am. And for that I suffer being alone and not knowing people that well at all. I don't let anybody really get to know me. I'm just tired of feeling like i have nobody to go to. And it's like praying isn't helping, cause i doubt Gods there to help. And i reject any bible verses i read cause i feel like even if i apply them to all theese problems in the end it will make things worse. Cause i'll try so hard to change things around that when i fall a while later i'll fall even farther into a dark hole. Iv'e done it too many times to count. And i'm tired of it. It's almost like suffering and not dealing with anything is easier then fixing things and then feeling heartbroken and dissapointed. I don't know how to explain it. I'm probably not even making any sense. Well just be praying if you could.

P.S. Thanks to all thoose on Sunday who supported me. Sunday made me realize how amazing my freinds are. How i don't deserve them at all. I am anything but good enough for each and every one. When my Grandpa died on sunday so many of my freinds came up to give me a hug. And to tell me that they were praying for me. And it just really encouraged me. Even some random people I didn't even know that well, somehow heard the news and came up to tell me they loved me and cared about what was happening. And that everything was going to be okay. Somehow that encouraged me so much to where I'm verry strong through it all. I don't know how to explain it. I thought sense so many other things in my life were going wrong that i would be even weaker. But all of thoose who helped made things so much better. I didn't need anything else added to my problems. I thought this would make things so much worse. But my freinds helped me grow stronger and more confident in what was happening in that area.
So thanks.

Love you all verry much.

Take a stand

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I'm turning my heart towards heavens perfect light

I give you my sin, i'm turning away from my fright

I kneel down to pray "God please give my eyes your sight"

Show me what i'm supossed to be

I give up living only for me

I am ready to start tonight

Show me the joy of your eternal light

Take away theese memories that give my heart pain

Don't let me turn away, don't let me stay the same

Keep me from living on my own and going insane

On my own i'm headed for dissapointment and pain

But with you, i can have something to live for, something to gain

Take away my sinful flesh for it will rob me from what is best

Give me a desire and heart to live for you,

Blind me to what man thinks is better,

for it will only lead to living life un-true

I'm tired of not being able to walk and stand

And so i pray that you would take my right hand

And lead me through this sin filled land

Help me be a light unto this dark nation

Through you're holy word and eternal dedication

Use me to lead others out of their hopless despiration.

Unfinished poetry and prayer requests

2005-11-20T12:11:00.000-08:00

Hey everybody! I need ideas, i'm writting a poem about being at a coffee cafe, and i don't know where to go with it, like what to talk about in the poem next, or how to end it. So if you guys have any ideas coment them!

Coffee Cafe

Every day, I sit in my small corner of this Coffee Cafe

To ease the pain i might be going through, or just to write away all day

Always greeted with the comforting smell of coffee scents every time i come in,

Some i inhale in softly, others i simply pass by, letting them ascend,

As i observe what's going on from my corner view

I notice how people with broken smiles scurry

And the lonely eyes pass through in a hurry

Not even taking their time to relax and think

Just getting their coffee to go, swiftly sipping up their drink.

Well there it is, tell me what you guys think i should talk about next in that poem.

Prayer requests:

Hannah's sick! Pray that she gets better so she can be well for the thanksgiving week, and cause we don't want her to be sick.

My grandpa, he has cancer as most of you know, and right now he's sicker then he ussauly is, so just pray that when he leaves this world that everything is settled in his soul, and that he would make peace with thoose who he's fought with.

I also need prayer, iv'e been just really trying to completly live for God right now, and it's just so hard at times, either others take the place Gods spose to be, or i fail because i keep thinking i can't do it.

Caleb and Rachel at college! I know it's hard and stressful, expessaily when theirs exams and tests, and i know both of them have had some of thoose lately. So be praying that they could find peace through it all.

Love you guys so much! Each and every one of you are blessings in my life, im so glad god has placed you in my life. That goes for all the people who have been comenting, my family, and all of my freinds.

Love you, stay strong in him,

Lora

Sara

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This post is about Sara, and how she's obsessed with taking WEIRD pictures.

Sara's feet

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Sara always has to get a picture of her feet...

Sara's famous self-picture taking

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And of course the famous sara's self-photo shots

Sara's also obsessed with taking pictures of me

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Sara always has to make me look really bad in a picture.
Which i guess i look bad even if i'm not trying lol.

Me

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Me

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Crimson Moonlight

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The mystical moonlight lay upon the glacial ground

While the dark stary night is silent all around

The frightning cold wind so softy blows me by

Like a moan from a souls mournful cry

This silent night could soothe any upset sigh

Amidst the stars, sky, and the dark crimson moon

That could keep me here longer then leaving it all soon

I know this dark mysterious night is temporary art

For soon the sun will do it's joyus part

And scoop away the crimson moon with a glorious cheerful start

But for now i paint the memory in my mind,

And rest my heart

Untill this darkness will depart.

Poety blog

2005-11-09T13:23:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, i got a blog for my poetry, so from now on i'll be posting my poetry here.

A post

2005-11-06T21:44:00.000-08:00

Well, this is weird. I'm posting. I don't know what came over me, i just feel like posting. So you guys need to go to my freinds blogger and leave him some comments. He likes coments and needs some, so leave lots.

Iv'e gotten so used to ignoring you and running in shame

That i don't know how to feel you, or call out your name.

God don't let this last, my heart is bitter and im losing patience fast

My heart is so numb, from what iv'e become

I'm trapped inside this flesh that won't come undone

Take me, break me, make me into something new

Make me into something that has a desire to live for you

I'm finding myeslf falling short in everything i do

I don't wan't to live for my selfish desires cause that's living untrue

Take me away, all i am is a mess trapped in self created stress.

Well i'm going to post something really weird today. I call it top 10 list. It's fun i guess...Something to keep me occupied. But you guys need to do it to and then coment what you do! cause i wanna see it. And i don't wan't to be the only one doing the top 10 list.

10 Things i wan't to do before i die

Sell the paino songs i made up in a music store. (Which i doubt would ever happen.)

Raise a family.

Go skydiving.

Go bike riding 20 or 30 miles non-stop.

Before i die i wan't to write a long letter to each and every one of my freinds and family who have made a difference in my life.

Bring somebody to Christ.

See all my favorite 20 bands all at one concert. (Like that would ever happen.)

Publish a poetry book. But i would have to get a whole lot better first. Cause i'm not verry good.

Go to Hawaii.

Write lyrics for a bands album.

10 Things that encourage me to go on in life

Writting down everything i feel about life day by day.

Comparing my problems to others all around the world, and realizing i could have it alot worse.

God's forgiveness and the way he'l always be there to ease my pain, and help me through it. And there is always a light admist my darkness.

Anybody that gives encouraging words, and show that they care.

Keeping the mindset of everything i do is to glorify God.

The fact that God has my whole life planned out from the begging to the end. And even when iv'e fallen down on my face, there's always hope and a way out of anything.

Listening to DM live. Which is a radio show for teen's who call in with problems they need answers for. It makes me realize i am so blessed to have the things i do. Cause theese people who call in have no idea what the truth of life is, or they call in hopeless, and abandoned, with no freinds or family.

Music with encouraging lyrics, i really focuse on lyrics and what other people say. I most of the time take it to heart.

Reading the bible of truth and hope.

The fact that God has placed me on this earth for a reason, and none of us are without purpose.

10 Things i really enjoy doing

Being there for my freinds, and helping them carry any burdens they have in life. And showing them i love and care for them.

Giving compliments to others to encourage them on.

Talking one on one with freinds and getting to know them better.

Listening to music.

Writting every night for hours and hours.

Playing the paino, and making up songs.

Writting poems.

Dancing.

Drawing.

Reading song lyrics, figuring out what each and every one means, and if the meaning seems to encourage me, i memorize it, or print it out and read it over and over again to tell myeslf there is hope.

10 Christian examples i really look up to

Anna

Brad

Caleb

Hannah

Rachel

Steven

Taylor

My parents

My sister

My brothers

10 of my favorite songs

The Cranberries "Eletric blue"

Switchfoot "Daisy"

Switchfoot "The fatal wound"

Switchfoot "Easier then love"

Demon hunter "Infernal place"

Lifehouse "Everything"

Skillet "Imperfection

Skillet "Alien youth"

Skillet "You are my hope"

Switchfoot "The setting sun"

Okay you guys do the top ten and then coment what you did! Cause i wanna see your top 10 lists. Love you guys so much!

Lora

Hey

2005-11-01T12:39:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, i'm finnaly posting. I decided im not going to do blogger for a while, i have nothing to talk about anymore. And i need a break from the computer, im on to much. But thanks for all the coments! Caleb, Rachel, Hannah, Steven, Allie, Christina and Eric. I appreciate all of your coments! But i won't be posting for a while. Check back like next year lol, i might start again. I'm just really tired of blogging for now. And also there's really no point to my posts, so yeah. I quit for now.

Love you guys

Give me a soul that never drifts away
I don't wan't to live for my selfish desires
I'm tired of being away from you, living in my decay
Give me a pure heart, Inspire me along the way
I wan't to live my life through you,
I give you all the credit for anything i do
For withought you i am anything but true
Take my mind, my sins and shame,
Renew me, so im not lost in your name
If the world abandons me, and they blame
I will stand out as a light to glorify his name
Help me stay strong, be my foundation
Despite the worlds lies and condemnation.

Bored

2005-10-22T15:06:00.000-07:00

I'm at my brothers house right now, and i don't have anything to do. He's sleeping on the couch beside me making weird noises, and he's like whinning. I have alotta fun when i come over here, but since he's sleeping, i guess all there is to do is post a whole bunch of quizzes and stuff..

What name suits your personality?
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Guy- Evan
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around you!

What fruit are you?
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but love attention from people.

YAY MY BROTHERS UP!

wow this post is pretty pointless. oh well aren't they all?

Live for him

2005-10-20T15:49:00.000-07:00

When i stand and then i fall
When i lose hope,
And don't even wan't to be here at all
When iv'e fallen down, and im deppressed,
You always leave a way for me to escape from my stress
You never leave me a problem that is to much of a mess
I will never fully know how much I am blessed
I always focuse on my pain and hurt
While throwing all my blessings and God's forgivness in the dirt
Tears fall down my face
I waltz through this darkness at a endless pace
But through it all
Your always there holding my right hand
You help me up so i can stand
In this life others knock me down
But you will never leave me fallen on the ground.
When chains bind me from my past
You say in my heart "Your forgiven"
And your past should be forgotten fast
I bled and died to take away your sins
Through me you are eternally forgiven
Walk with me day by day
And i will show you the way through this life of decay
Live in this world, but never follow their flow
You are a shinning light amoung their dark soul
Follow me and i will make you whole.

Now for something different

2005-10-18T21:15:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, today's post is going to be a little different.

As christians i think one of the most important things is prayer. So we can pray for each other, and help each other carry burdens. So if you have any prayer requests coment them, and i'll be praying for you! Im tired of writting about myeslf lol, my lifes to boring, and your prayer requests are alot more important then me posting about my day. So coment any prayer requests you have!

Love you!

Hannah, sara and me

2005-10-16T11:58:00.000-07:00

Finnaly back at the church ready to head home!

Brad, me, hannah and nikki

2005-10-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

The ride on the way home! woot woot.

Me

2005-10-15T20:38:00.000-07:00

Here's another example of why i aviod pictures

This pic is for Caleb

2005-10-15T20:31:00.001-07:00

Caleb look deep into the eyes of this dog and
tell me it's evil. look at her sweet innocent face!

Nicholas

2005-10-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

Lol nick your awesome!

Alexis, stephanie, amy and aubrey

2005-10-15T20:30:00.000-07:00

I love all you girls!

Ahhh....

2005-10-15T20:29:00.000-07:00

This my freinds, is why i aviod pictures...Look
how bad i look! It could give someone a nightmare

Awesome hannah

2005-10-15T20:28:00.000-07:00

I love you so much hannah! your so amazing!

The BORING hoedown

2005-10-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry guys...but the hoedown was boring..
Well the dancing part, i enjoyed talking to people.
But i say we should have filled the time with something
different like a game of some sort.

Hannah, sara and jessica

2005-10-15T20:25:00.001-07:00

You girls are so freaking awesome!

Amy and sara

2005-10-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

I LOVE AMY AND SARA! what the heck?!?
the pictures sideways!!

Hannah, sara and me

2005-10-15T20:24:00.000-07:00

Man this picture scares me...

My lovely sister!

2005-10-15T20:23:00.000-07:00

Awww! sara, your so pretty!

Zach

2005-10-15T20:20:00.000-07:00

HAHA! Zach your so funny. *high five*

I just thought this picture was really pretty

2005-10-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

I just thought this was a really pretty view!

Casie!

2005-10-15T20:17:00.000-07:00

Don't ask me why there's a heart around this picture...
This picture was taken by my sisters camera.
Sara is there something you wanna tell us? lol j/k!

Dave

2005-10-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

Dave doing who know's what....

Sara and Hannah

2005-10-15T20:12:00.000-07:00

AWWW! i love sara and hannah!

Tyler

2005-10-15T20:10:00.000-07:00

Wow...now that's something special

2005-10-13T19:28:00.000-07:00

Verse 1
I pray for the people who feel alone
They feel as if nothing is there home
they don't know which way to go
And so they follow the flow
I pray for the broken and lost
The ones who dont know how much they cost
Help them find the only thing that's true
Help them see the eternity that's with you

Chorus:
Why can't they see clearly?
That you died for their sins
Why can't they open up
and let your eternal loving kindness in?
Don't they know through you they are forever forgiven?

Verse 2
To all thoose who feel like their lives are torn apart
Listen to the voice deep inside your heart
There's someone who has been waiting for you
To give you a life from the verry start
Cause He doesn't want you to live your life completly fallen apart

Chorus:
Why can't they see clearly?
That you died for their sins
Why can't they open up
and let your eternal loving kindness in?
Don't they know through you they are forever forgiven?

Bridge:
I wan't to live for you day by day
And whatever sin comes my way
I will face it with your word of truth
Every problem or issue i have courage through
Cause i can always take it to you.

DOUBLE BONUS!

2005-10-08T21:42:00.000-07:00

Why the title of this post is called "double bonus" Is because i am giving you a post AND a poem i made up. So when you are done reading this post, underneath this post there will be more. Oh great, this is really going to be boring for you.

So theese last couple of days have been crazy. Wensday evening i left for breakaway retreat. It wen't a whole lot better then i was expecting it to go. I was afraid all my problems were going to follow me there. Cause what i ussauly do on trips for some reason, is try and fix every single situation and problem that im dealing with. The first day of breakaway retreat didn't go to well, cause i started looking at life through my own eyes, and every single thing just was black and white. I don't know how to explain it. But i let all theese problems and issues get to me. And i felt like i couldn't fix them, and that there was no way out. So i closed myself off to God and my freinds. But i think going through that the first day was all part of God's plan. I completly had a emotional breakdown at breakaway retreat, and i complelty handled it wrong. I gave up, just completly gave up. I thought that God didn't wan't to help me, and same for everybody else around me. But in that moment, everything changed. I really think god used hannah, zach, steven, and sara to help me realize what i was doing. How i had hope. And it's like everything changed so fast, i don't know how it all happened. But they made me realize sooo many things. And so in that moment, i completly turned to God.

And i realized how stupid i was being every time i was depressed or down about issues and trails. I would always focuse on my feelings, and run from everything i knew that would help me. I think that i learned so much at this breakaway retreat that it can't even all be put into words. I have deffinettly never seen God so clear. He completly came into view at breakaway retreat. I also realized that i was always setting my goals to high. Like i was expecting way to much out of myself. I kept thinking i didn't do a good enough job for God in everything i did. But you know, i am a young child in God. And i have alot of growing up to do, and alot of wisdom to learn from him. I shouldn't try to speed up that process. It's a slow learning process, and he's working on me all the time. I'm not saying i should ignore it, of course i shouldn't. I should listen to what he says, and see what he show's me. But i shouldn't be getting depressed over that, Cause even if im not doing a good job in my eyes, i am in his eyes. And he still usses me through tons of things, and trying my hardest is the best thing i can do. That's what i have been doing, but setting my goals to high and expecting to much out of myself so quickly, can create dissapointment in myeslf. But he usses every christian so much in a life. So i have decided to restart everything.

And walk with God step by step up the stairs in life. But not skip 2 steps up like i ussauly do. Cause i have verry much to learn from him. Well i hope that makes sense. I also learned that no matter what i am going through, no matter how lost i am in life, there is ALWAYS hope and there is always a way out. No matter how many times i fail no matter how many times i look like an idiot, he still loves me. And usses me in many ways in other peoples lives. But wow, when i can view life through Gods eyes, everythings so bright and clear. Even if there are thoose slow times were i feel like im acheiving nothing, God's working on me. He never stops working on me. In the bible it says, today has enough worry on it's own, don't worry about what tommorow holds. God will reveal everything to you when the time comes and he has your whole life planned out. I need to apply that to my life at the dry times, were it just feels like im trapped in a desert with nothing around..But Wow i don't know if im making any sense, i don't know if i'm even speaking english! But just god's joy that he gives me, it makes me wanna go on and on. Have you ever been so close to God, that you can't describe it? Like it's so amazing and there's just so much hope in life looking through God's eyes!

Well breakaway retreat was wonderful. Not only did i get close to God, but i close to some of my amazing brothers and sisters in christ. And I gave all the burdens up to God that i had been carying around with me. I even let them all go to heart, but I just gave them all up to God at breakaway retreat. Here's another thing...I'm just so amazed at what all God has given me. I mean he gave me brothers and sisters in christ to help me carry my burdens in life. He gave me a house, i loving and wonderful family. He died for me. He's so amazing. I mean just think about that. He could have just gave us nothing, like we deserve. But he loves us soooo much to where he is always there to help us, he's gave us freinds, houses, talents, and just so many amazing things! But wow....all thoose others who went to breakaway retreat, i hope god has taught you as much as he did me! And i hope this post makes sense! I'm so filled up with joy and peace that i don't know if im just rambling a whole bunch of words or if im speaking in spanish or what! Hehe, i don't even know where all theese words are coming from. my fingers just keep typing and typing about all the things he has taught me in just 3 days!

Well i g2g, i love you soooooooooo much! And God is always there for you, never to give up on you, never lose hope in him, he will love you forever and ever! And im always here for you if you need help carrying a burden, don't be lonely. This is what i learned, the more you try to do things on your own, the more you'l mess up. And why be alone, when God gave you so many people with the same things you have been through to help you out. Other people feel your pain in life, so know that your christian brothers and sisters in life are there for you. and most importantly God's there for you. And why i am saying this is cause this is one of the biggest things i have learned in the last couple of months. Always keep that in mind! Wow im just like rambling so much in this post! Well i really g2g. I love all of you soooo much! bye!

P.S. God really spoke to me through thoose who helped me at breakaway retreat. Thankyou sooo much for being there for me!

My rhyme

2005-10-08T21:04:00.000-07:00

She feels alone every day
She feels as if there is no way
To live this life That she lives day by day
Why must she always be in dismay?
In this mess, she's always trapped in stress
She's the one everybodys to blame
Always lost in her shame
She's never had joy she's always had pain
What is there to gain?
She sits upon her bed
Her tears pouring down her face
Why does she have to live in this terrible place?
Her miserable thoughts are a endless pace
She turns to sin to ease her pain
But nothing ever works to help of what she remains
She looks out her window, and up to the sky,
Was she meant to live? or was she meant just to die?
She wouldn't of had to live her life all in strife
If she would have known who's above
The only one who can love her lost soul
The only one who can make her whole
The one who can make her see, who can make her be
A shinning light for everybody to see
Wondering about this God of love she's heard about from above
Wondering if he can be someone she can truly love
Without being rejected and thrown in the dirt,
Without getting lost, broken, and hurt.
Lost in desperation, she cries out to God above
the one who's she's always ran from
Cause she's afraid of love
And as she cries out
"God save me just come inside,
Your the only hope i have to keep me alive
If you aren't real, and i'm stuck in this place,
i feel as if i'll give up, and run forever in haste"
It was then that her whole live changed
She never looked at any of theese things the same
She had somebody to go to, somebody to love
Somebody who's amazing, from up above
She then filled up with grace and love
From Today on she isn't half as weak
Everything is more like a blessing then a drain in the sink
Her tears have turned from tears of hate and sorrow
To joyful tears of the thought of tommorow
For now she has a reason to stay
Now she can be led to the right path and right way
Now has something she can give.
To thoose other lost souls all around
The ones who have fallen to the ground.
She then realizes God has always been around
He's always loved her, He's always been calling out her name
She was always running in shame,
Ever sense that day she's never been the same,
Now everybody looks up to her and they never blame
And now so many people wonder why
She can hold her head up so high
When before she was always the one who wanted to die
From today on she lives for her mighty king above
She lives to spread his eternal kindness and love.

Guys coment and tell me what you think of it. I tried to view of what life would be like withought God. It's kind of sad but at the same time it encourages me. To help thoose who don't know God. As christians we always have hope, and somebody to go to. Think about that and just how amazing God is. If you really just thnk about how we will never be completly alone, and we always have hope and a way out of every situation. I think it's amazing.

Frontline

2005-10-02T18:34:00.000-07:00

It's not like I'm walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death
Stand beside one another, 'cause it isn't over yet
I'd be willing to bet that if we don't back down
You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end
When it's over, we can say, "Well done"
But not yet, 'cause it's only begun
So, pick up, and follow me, we're the only ones
To fight this thing, until we've won
We drive on and don't look back
It doesn't mean we can't learn from our past
All the things that we might have done wrong
We could've been doing this all along

Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We're on the frontline

And we'll be carrying on, until the day it doesn't matter anymore
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
We fight to live, we live to fight
And tonight, you'll hear my battle cry
We live our lives on the frontlines
We're not afraid of the fast times
These days have opened up my eyes
And now, I see where the threat lies

We've got to lead the way

Prayer requests AND A POST! WOOT! WOOT!

2005-09-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

Well i have a hudge prayer request. Lots of you know about how my dad had to go to the hospital last night..Well last night at about 11 we figured out he got pneumonia. ugh and i hope i'm spelling that right..I just hope he recovers quickly, and that pneumonia won't bring him much pain!

Well days around here have been crazy. My dad going to the hospital and getting surgery, me getting sick, my dad going back to the hospital. But through all of this god has showed me how he takes care of everything, no matter what situation. And also just how faithful he is! It's amazing how i have so much joy, when alot of things are happening in my life. I have just been seeking god, and giving all my worries, fears, and troubles to him! Life can be so amazing when you live it the right way. Well i don't really have anything else to say...Except for I love you guys sooo much! i'm verry blessed to have you guys as my freinds!! Well i gotta go to church, see you all there! byes!

Lora

Poem

2005-09-20T14:43:00.000-07:00

Lord teach me every day
About the right path and way
Help me be all i can be
Help me lead others to eternity
Let me know when i have led myeslf astray
I want to live for you more in every way
Help me be an example of others to see
Jesus give me more of you and less of me.

Lots of stuff

2005-09-16T21:01:00.000-07:00

Yo! Today was alright...I got up and used my new lovely coffee machine...Which accauly isn't verry lovely cause my parents got a really cheap one, so when you make the coffee it like leaks water all over the counter. But oh well, the coffee tasted nice. Then after making my morning coffee, i did loads of school, which didn't go to well. : / but i don't think school is spose to go well with me any day.

I wish every person was just born with all the intelligence you need for life. And none of us needed to do school, cause we already knew everything. That way we could burn all the school books and not have to go to classes or college.

Well i just got done watching Phantom of The Opera....I don't think it was HALF as good as everybody made it out to be...Alot of my freinds said it was "AWESOME" Expessaily the music in the movie...But in my opinion the movie was "ok," and in my opinion the music was verry repetitive, and it all sounded the same....I guess you will have to watch it and see what you think of it...That is if you can survive through the boringness of it.

Well this is kinda silly of me to post
But this should be interesting. I have been fighting with Caleb and Rachel about how dog's are WAY cooler then cat's. And about how cat's are evil. But they have both turned to the dark side, and think that cat's tottaly rule.

Well i made up a list of 8 reasons why dogs are cooler then cat's.

Yes that might sound kinda stupid to some of you. But i must proove caleb and rachel wrong..

If you have any more reasons why dog's are cooler then cat's Post them. I could think of at least 100 more reasons, but im to tired to post them. So bye! i need some sleep love you all!

Ninja's in blenders

2005-09-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

Today my sister let me know that a blender is like a ninja in a bottle.

My dad

2005-09-11T21:35:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! I don't have much to post, i just have a prayer request.

My dad will be getting surgery a week from tuesday. So prayers would be awesome!

Well that's really all i have to say.

Love you guys!

P.S caleb and rachel like cats! WHAT THE HECK?!? All cat's must die. Who is going to help me kill all the cat's and save them from taking over the world?

CONTEST!

2005-09-07T15:43:00.000-07:00

I am leaving tommorow morning at 7 or 8 a.m tommorow for dallas.
So we are doing the contest thing again. The person who gives me the most coments while im gone WINS! Good luck to all of you. The contest starts today and ends saturday night at 10. So get started!

You guys can't let rachel win again. Last time we did this contest, she comented at least 200 times.
whoever coments the most is my hero.

So yes everybody must do the contest.

So how are you all doing? Today was verry dull and boring so i really have nothing to say about it. Except for the fact that it was dull and boring....

Well it was sad. i was reading my old xanga Today, and i realized how DUMB my posts used to be...I hope they have advanced some. And if they haven't, im really really sorry you have to put up with reading them.. i couldn't even read my old xanga for more then like 1 min, because it was so boring....

Well i need to go before i go insane, Remeber contest starts now! And if you win, your tottaly my hero.

Love all of you guys! Bye!

Hello

2005-09-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

Today hasn't been the greatest....My mom is really stressed out. And she really took it out on me today. My mom tends to take things out on me and my sister when she is emotional or stressed out. And i can't really handle that for long. I mean, i love my mom, but sometimes she just makes me soo depressed and stressed out. So if you guys could pray that everything would work out tommorow between us. that would be great..

Also 2 prayer requests.

Brad is getting his wisdom teeth taken out tommorow. yipes....

And caleb's mom needs prayer. She was in the hospital friday night, pray that her problem that she is going through isn't serouse.

Sorry this isn't a verry long post....I'm kinda down right now, i need a hug or something lol.

Well love you guys! Bye

WHAT'S MY PROBLEM?!?

2005-09-05T17:17:00.000-07:00

I don't know if any of you noticed. but i change my blog template at least every other day....Guys i have a interesting and weird problem.
I HAVE to change my blog template at least 3 times a week.....It drives me insane keeping the same blog template for long...

Coment and tell me what you think about that...why do i do that?!? lol it's weird

Well today was pretty good. I went to ultimate, the ultimate frisbee wasn't to fun. But i am verry glad i went, because i love seeing my freinds. It cheered me up alot.

God has showed me a whole lot this last week. I was having alotta problems with feeling like i belonged, and having problems with feeling alone. I felt so alone. but god showed me, that withought him, i am helpless. And i really have gotten alot closer to god this past week. It made me realize, when you can be close to god, it makes everything better. Every situation seems less painful when god is near. When i drift away from god, i try to fill that empty space with stuff Like music, or freinds. But i realized that that happiness with other things cannot last long. Living for other things does not work. You have to have a strong foundation that can stand alone, a strong foundation to live your life on.. And that only foundation is god. Nothing else lasts for long.

Well we moved my brother out friday. It's hard to get used to the change, sense my brother is one of the closest to me in our family. But prayer has helped me alot. At first i was really unstable, but i prayed and it pretty much made everything okay. It made me realize how this isn't that bad at all. And it made me realize it's probably best for my brother.

Well god is amazing! Life is just so much better with him near.

I love you! bye!

God's love

2005-09-04T22:07:00.000-07:00

I walk through the desert
hide from the sun
All that I desire is You
Occasional water cools my thirst
All I that I desire is You

I don't want to live dying on the inside

I breathe so softly
don't feel too content
Apathy whispers it makes me think
Am I just another person whose time went fast?

What does it take to be called great
I don't want to live dying on the inside

Because Your love is better than life
Because Your voice heals me inside
Because my soul is satisfied
Because Your love keeps me alive

I cannot be silent
Im crying out
My soul is cold
my heart is numb
I break from my old self
and step into You

You complete what was never enough
Because Your love is better than life
Because Your voice heals me inside
Because my soul is satisfied
Because Your love keeps me alive

Keeps me alive with the strength to speak
This generation is dying to see
Who You are and how You free
Come Lord Jesus come

Make my heart alive
Because Your love keeps me alive

Prayer requests

2005-09-02T14:44:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody!

I have some prayer requests. For my freinds and my family.

The huricane has increased the gas price by tons....And if it doesn't go down soon, my mom and dad won't be able to afford taking me to church or anything..Well i will be able to come on sundays, but that will be all...And we might have to miss our trip to dallas, beacuse the gas raise is to high for my mom and dad to afford.

Well the huricane is affecting alotta people. I'm glad the huricane has finnaly stopped. But i wanna Pray for hannah and rachel's cousins that live up near where the huricane was.

Also, I have to quit dance because my mom and dad can't afford it.

NOOOOO!!!

Lol well, i will survive......... i think...

Well i would much rather not do dance, then have my parents pay for it when they can't afford it.

Also My dad has to get surgrey, and he will have to quit his job, because of his back problems. So if yall could pray that he could find another job that's easy, and pays well. I would love that too. And my mom is going to have to get a job to support the family. Pray that she doesn't get stressed out with whatever job she get's. And that god would help her with this alot.

So i need prayer for my parents, and family. That they won't stress out about this.

And prayer for everybody else who's family's were affected by the huricane.

Also. Nicholas, zach, and phillip. i am praying for you guys, i know you are all upset. Know that god is always with you, and that he is ready to help you, and always show you the way! And i'm always here if you guys need somebody to talk to! I am praying for each and every one of you guys! And praying for each and every problem and situation you guys are going through.

One more prayer request.

Rachel and caleb. I know college has been hard on both of you. I wanna pray that college will go easily, And that when you are down about college that god would show you what to do. And remeber you guys, i'm always here if you wanna talk about college! And remeber, god's always listening, and he is with you the whole way through college! And i know both of you can make it through college!

Love all of you guys! God bless

Bye everybody!

Church And Yoda

2005-09-01T13:41:00.000-07:00

Well, Today has been pretty good. Two sad things happened. I found out that when my sister play's the paino, or is doing school on the computer, she tends to talk to herself. That just about annoyed me to death. But i still had a good day. And my dad made me pretty sad, because he had to ask me how to sign out of his own email account....And then he didn't know how to close the enternet explorer window...If you guy's didn't know, my dad is the biggest computer illeterate.

Last night was verry interesting. After church, rachel, phillip, brad, anna, nicholas and I. Where having like star wars battles. And of course, I completly OWNED everybody because the force is so strong with me. Accauly i completly lost....but oh well.
And for some reason, brad decided i look like yoda. So i was that character most of the time.

We will have to do a poll for this one...and see what everybody else thinks.

Do i look like Yoda?
	Heck no
	Heck yes
	Just a little bit more of green, and you would.
	No, but brad looks like yoda.

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I'm really glad i wen't to church last night, Dave's sermon really spoke to me. He talked about how It's easy to fill our heart with people and freinds. And revolve our life around them instead of god. And expect them to be able to help us all the time. I wasn't really going to god for anything. I think that is why i have been having alotta problems. I mean yes, freinds are good to go to for help, but god should always be first. My life is revolved around my freinds WAY more then it is revolved around god. And if your life is revolved around something that sin's just like you, it's not a firm foundation to live on. So if you guys could pray that i could do better, and live for god more, that would be great.

Everybody vote on the poll. And have a nice day.

Love you!!

YO

2005-08-30T14:56:00.000-07:00

My quizz

What is your favorite number? And why? At the time....14. Um you figure it out.
What do you like most about yourself? ....mmmm, i like how i can ussauly be kind and always be there for my freinds.
What do you dislike most about yourself? Well my biggest dislike would be how im so hard on myself, and my impatience.
What sounds really good at the moment? Going to church, and seeing all my freinds.
What is your favorite tv. show? FRASIER! or malcom in the middle.
Out of all your freinds, Who know's you best? mmmmmm........That's a hard one. I'd say either zach or anna.
Who make's you laugh the most? Phillip or my brother
Who know's how to cheer you up the best? Rachel, sara, hannah, zach and caleb.
What is your biggest fear? My biggest fear is losing all my freinds, and being verry alone at some point in life.
What is something you wan't to do before you die? SKYDIVING WITHOUGH A PARACHUTE! i guess that would be right before i die...Maybee with a parachute...
If you could change one thing about this world, What would it be? No misfits. like people wouldn't judge other's by the way they acted or looked. And that everybody would accept people for the way they are.
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) What is your walk with god? 4 or 5
How many monkeys are standing behind you right now? About 3 and 1/2
At the moment, what is your life like on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest?) 5
What is your favorite place to hang out at? Either starbucks or church
Is there anything you think I need to work on? I myself think i need to work on being more patient. And i think i need to work on trusting god more, and going to him instead of being so hard on myself about everything.
How many hours are you on the computer? (in a week) 15...yikes...
Cocacolla or Dr. Pepper? COCACOLLA ALL THE WAY BABY!
Reese's or Hershey's chocolate? 3 MUSCATEERS!
Math or spelling? Deffintelly spelling...
Eating or sleeping? Sleeping. woot woot.
Ductape or scotch tape? Ductape. DUH
What is your favorite sport? Hmmm....either baskitball or volleyball
What 5 things do you think you are most talented at? Running, Singing, Drawing, Being kind to freinds, Being a loving freind.
What 5 things do you think you are most un-talented at? Ultimate frisbee, being patient, having a good aditude, baseball, keeping my cd's from getting scratched.
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) How weird do you think i am? 10
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) How weird do you think you are? 5
A couple more questions. Do you say yay? or nay? NAY!!!!
What is your favorite worship song? Or favorite song by a band? and why? Lift it up by "tfk" Because that song is verry encoradging to me whenever i feel lost in life.
Name one thing you like best in a freind? A freind who is willing to listen to you at anytime.
Name one thing you dislike in a freind? A freind who is not willing to listen.
Any prayer requests? if so name them. Yes, a couple. I need to stop feeling the way i have been, and i need to go to god more then i have been. And i need to stop being so hard on myeslf.
Anything you have to say to me? This is some good icing
What is something you like about me? Ummm..i like my kindness towards others. that's really all. everything else i sorta like or i tottaly dislike about me.
What is your favorite sent? Vanilla sugar cookie's baking in the oven..mmmm...
What is your most un-favorite sent? My brother when he has just got back from mowing lawn's.

Well guy's. That's all. Do my quizz and coment your results! Love you guys!

That was fun

2005-08-29T13:47:00.000-07:00

Well i just got back from mazzio's. Yes, im in highschool now, It's verry scary. I remeber when my sister would go to mazzio's. and i would say, holly cow! My sister is old, she's in highschool! And well, now here i am, In highschool.. Well i had a good time. talking to brad, phillip and taylor. You guys rock.

So i have been strugglling with some issues lately. For some reason, i have a strong feeling that im alone. And that im not needed AT all. I finnaly talked to my sister about it. And it helped alot. I'm doing alot better today then i was last night. But if you guys could pray that that feeling does not come back again, and that i'll stop feeling that way. That would be great.

So my blogger is completly dying. I need to post more.

So....One of my freinds is in danger. Jedi Rachel Is trying to kill my verry dear freind caleb. We must stop her. I also heard of some plot, of jedi Rachel trying to kill my lovely sister too. You can read more about it here. But for now, Everybody must protect my lovely sister and my dear freind caleb. May the force be with all who help. We must save them from Jedi rachel. All who are in favor of helping and stopping this dark jedi say "I"

Have a nice day. And may the force be with you.

Rachels Quiz

2005-08-26T14:59:00.000-07:00

My reply to rachels quiz that she made
1. First name: Lora

2. Age: 14

3. Birthday: Feb 11, 1991

4. The all-important question: chocolate or vanilla? CHOCOLATE! DUH!

5. Tea or coffee? Coffee! Only old and boring people like tea.

6. Pessimist or optimist? Iv'e always wondered myself. My mom says a little of both, so i'll go with that.

7. Extrovert or introvert? Mmmmm i don't know what either of thoose words mean lol

Favorite

8. Book (other than the Bible): Hangmans curse! by frank e perritti

9. Movie: Big fish, The princess bride, or while you were sleeping.

10. Song(s): At the time my favorite song is, Slow bleed by thousand foot krutch

11. Music artists/bands (list from 1-5):
.TFK
.Skillet
.Evanescence
.The Cranberries
.12 Stones

12. Food: POTATOES or my mom's chicken dumpling. Or pizza. i can't decide.

13. What Cold drink do you like on a hot day?: FROZEN COFFEE FROM PINARA BREAD!

14. Jelly Belly flavor: SICK are you kidding me? I hate jelly belly's

15. Model of car: Uhhh, no idea....

16. Thing to do when you’re sick: Watch alfred hitchcock movies

17. Color: Blue

18. Season: WINTER!

19. Month: DECEMBER!

20. Day of the week: Wensday

21. Hour of the day: 8

22. Girl’s name (pick a few of your favorites): Lydia, Marajade and ella

23. Boy’s name (pick a few of your favorites): Elijah

24. What is your dream place to live? Either Mexico or here

25. What do you want to be “when you grow up”? Um...Don't know yet, Either a artist or a music composer.

26. Who is your biggest role-model (other than Jesus if you’re a Christian)? I have a couple....
Rachel, hannah and caleb.

27. If there was one thing you could change about yourself, what would it be? I would like to be more giving. And more patient.

28. What’s one of the things you like most about yourself? The way i care and love my freinds alot.

29. What is your love language? Spending time and talking one on one

30. What’s your favorite Scripture verse? Why? Romans 12:2. Because it talks about not conforming into the ways of this world, And i think that is a verry important thing to do in life.

31. List five things that you really enjoy doing
.Watching frasier, while eating penut butter ghram crackers up in my room
.Hanging out with freinds
.Going to starbucks
.Helping my freinds out
.Hanging out with my brother

32. Describe an interesting dream you remember having: It's alittle TO interesting to say. LOL, rachel and hannah you guys remeber the dream i had with caleb andreson? Yeah, that's why im not saying my dream..If you really care just ask me about it.

33. Who is one person that you would like to see right now (God doesn't count, if that's what you're thinking)? Hmmm, ryan. Because i haven't seen him in a REALLY long time, and i miss my brother lots

And some questions for you to answer about me

34. Do I remind you of a character from a story? Who and why? Nope, not really.

35. If there were to be a movie of my life, who would star in the lead role? Hmmm. i have no idea.

36. When you think of me, what comes to mind? A verry kind, loving and WONDERFUL freind!
With a big heart for god!

37. What do you like about me? The way you set such a wonderful example for me, and how you Put your freinds needs over yours.

38. What do you think I need to work on? Nothing really comes to mind

39. Is there any way I could be a better friend to you? Not that i can think of

40. How does my relationship with God look to you? strong

41. Is there any additional advice you have for me? Stay strong in college! even when it's hard, i will always be here for you. So will god, and all your other freinds! This advice goes for caleb too!

Verry nice quiz rachel! Everybody do this quiz, it's lots of fun!
I'll be back tommorow with a post, But for now, im off to the lovely library.
Love you guys!

Scared

2005-08-25T20:58:00.000-07:00

Well. I just got scared half to death because of this movie.

Take my advice, never watch it. Unless you wan't to get scared half to death.

Sorry guys, if i let you down, i haven't posted in a while. I probably more like gave you a break from you reading my annoying posts.

WICHITA pictures!

2005-08-20T16:54:00.000-07:00

HOLLY FREAKING COW!!!

RACHEL AND HANNAH! they are awesome

Hannah

Steven, caleb and rachel

Ah and yet again, steven, caleb and rachel

My lovely sister

The lovely dam

Star Wars III

2005-08-20T12:05:00.000-07:00

WELL, i saw star wars III with my sis, phillip, brad and anna yesterday....And i learned a lesson from that. NEVER sit between anna and phillip because they will say every line from the movie of star wars.

LOL but it was awesome, and sara, brad, anna and phillip i love you guys! and all of you are awesome!

So i need to go because my cousins are over here. Many of you might know them, Caitlyn and Tyler. they are kool! And probably more important than this blog.

So everybody have a good day. bye love you guys!

p.s I NEED COMENTS!
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Wichita mountains!

2005-08-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

Wow, i went to the library earlier today, and i saw about 20 people playing on runescape...Even a 31 year old playing runescape...Let's all take a silent moment, and pray for them. Because runescape is the BIGGEST waste of time. And it is also the stupiedest game, anybody can EVA play!!!

Now for something else

OMG! yesterday was awesome! The wichita mountains were AwEsOmE! Except for the fact that i almost got a 100$ Ticket from the police....That wasn't to great...Ask my brother about that btw.

Well how did everybody like the wichita's? I thought it was awesome! I was sorta sad though, because i never even climed the wichita's because i was having major shin splints...All i hiked was the 40 foot hole or w/e it's called. That was fun, But the wichita's own the 40 foot hole.

I would post some wichita pictures on this post, but i don't have any...So im waiting for the magruders to put wichita pictures on there site, so i can steal the pictures from the awesome trip!

So im like really tired and crippled right now. And caleb and phillip kept dunking me. And then steven Tried to dunk me by my leg that happened to be really sore, and my muscle was pulled in like 2 different places...

I guess i tend to get dunked, sense im a little wimp. Oh well.

My eyes feel like somebody sprayed lemon juice in them....I guess it's because i got tons of water in my eyes, THANX TO PHILLIP AND CALEB! and cause iv'e been looking at the computer screen to long.

Well bye everybody!

I have to give a couple of shoutoutz first! Fo all the people who went to the wichita's I LOVE YOU GUYS!

And everybody at the swimming pool party rocked too! Oh what the heck, i shall give you the names.

Anna, caleb, hannah, rachel, stephen, zach, donnald, joshua, phillip, nick, zac and my sis! I love all you guys! and had a awesome time with yall at the wichita's and at the pool par-tay!

I close with that. goodbye everybody!

YEEEEEEYAAAAAAYAAAA!

2005-08-17T10:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! I'm really excited. In about 30 minutes im leaving to go hicking all day at the wichitaw mountinas! I love the witchitaw mountains..And caleb or somebody who know's how to spell...how do you spell witchitaw...hmmm..Well anyways, i'll talk to yall later. and post about the lovely time at the lovely montains when i get back!

love you

Why is there a big space here?!?

Sorry christina

2005-08-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

Yes christina. i am stealing pictures from your camera and putting them on my blog. I hope you don't mind.

After turner falls AND andrew's park on monday. We all went to the homeschooling thingy. Were you find what classes you wan't to sign up for.

I WISH I HAD PICTURES OF "TURNER FALLS"! But christina wasn't there to get them for me, so im verry sorry guys....

Well here's the pic's from the homeschooling thingy.

Hey, everybody take my quiz

2005-08-16T13:35:00.000-07:00

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Hey everybody. i don't really feel like talking today, im like really tired....

But yall have a awesome day! and do my quizz.
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Im doing this poll for caleb

2005-08-15T21:44:00.000-07:00

I did this poll for caleb...To prove that cocacolla is better. He thinks that good freinds don't let their freinds drink cocacolla. pffftt! whatever. Everybody has to vote on this, so i can prove caleb wrong!!!

So today was flippin sweet!! First off, turner fall's was cancled. cause the place got tottaly flooded. like it can't be opened untill saturday. and today is only monday. And then we wen't too this water park, and it was really really fun! Probably the funest time of the day. and then me rachel sara and hannah. went to this homeschool thingy..which was also fun.

BUT IM SORTA SAD!!! cause i had to choose between art classes or dance or paino...and it was really hard. so yeah the homeschooly thingy was like to see what classes you can take through the school year. and to sign up for them and stuff.

and now i am getting boring on this post...so i should go

LOVE YOU!!!

everybody vote on the poll above.

p.s. phillip, rachel, hannah, caleb, christy, zach, zac, christina, stephanie, cynthia, faith, grace, becka and rebekah. I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS! AND HAD A AWESOME TIME HANGING OUT WITH YALL TODAY!!!

What the heck?!?

2005-08-14T18:30:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE HECK!!!

Your Daddy Is Darth Vader

What You Call Him: Pops
Why You Love Him: He takes you to church

Who's Your Daddy?

Wow

2005-08-14T17:15:00.000-07:00

Theese last couple of days have been crazy!!! So i haven't had time to post on my lovely blog.

Friday was nerf wars. Which was kinda kool. Saturday was ultimate frisbee and then the mall and then the magruders came over all day and we chatted. THAT WAS LOADS OF FUN!!! and then today, I went to church, and then jessica came over and hung out with me, my brother and sister down at my brothers house. And we watched a movie.

So im really tired...

and tommorow i will be gone all day at turner fall's.

But anyways, Today at church was really fun. I love the 6th grade girls. I sat with them for like the 1st time today..And During the fast songs at church, we went crazy and did homie dances, and scared some people...But it was worth it.

Well i need to go take a nap, or something...I'm really really really tired. BYES! love you

Bad news

2005-08-12T10:21:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. We got a bad call this morning.
My aunt called us and told us that my great uncle got cancer, and only has 6 months left to live. So if you guys could pray for our family. and my uncle's family. and please pray that my great uncle would know Christ. because iv'e talked to him before, and i don't know if he does or not. and pray for my grandma, she's really depressed. because my great uncle was her brother.

Bye, love you.

Lyrics by skillet

2005-08-11T11:32:00.000-07:00

You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be

Tears falling down again
Tears falling down

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made

Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons

You fall to your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour your heart
In every hour, you're drowning
In your imperfection

Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you

You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Drowning in imperfection

WOoT

2005-08-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

HeY everybody! I just got back from hanging out with my brother all day. It was loads of fun! I got to eat my wonderful cheesy gordita again from taco bell. 2 of them this time, which is like 60 carbs and 240 calories...oh well...nvm that...

Everybody try to keep my brother from moving!!!! He's moving away from our house, and it's sad...

So how is everybody doing? I don't really have anything to post again, arggg.

Hey Peoples. iv'e finnaly decided im DITCHING xanga, and keeping blogspot. So coment.

Here's lyrics of all the tracks on tfk's new ablum. check e'm out, I found them really uplifting and encouradging. Expessaily the lyrics to the last song.

1. Absolute
2. Slow bleed
3. The Art Of Breaking
4. Stranger
5. Hurt
6. Hand grenade
7. Move
8. Hit The Floor
9. Go
10. Make me a believer
11. Breathe you in

Well i g2g. it's 11 and my parents wan't me 2 get off. Bye, love you.

My brother finnaly has a girl!

2005-08-09T18:05:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody. My brother got a awesome motorcycle.
And he needs help naming her.
He call's it a she, So if you guys have any motorcycle girl names. Coment them!

Go here to get more info about his new girl.

Love you lots!
Love, LjR

I am Bored

2005-08-09T13:08:00.000-07:00

*My survey I made*
ARE YOU EXCITED?!!!!?	YES!
are you sure?!!?	YES!
Ok whats your biggest fear?	Space monkeys
How many eyes do you have?	3
Is my blogger stupid?	Yup
*Which one*
Blogger or Xanga?	Blogpot
Your mom or my mom?	My mom
Dr. pepper or cocacolla?	Cocacolla!! mmmmm
Dog's or cat's?	DOG'S! I HATE CAT'S!
How do you throw away a trash can?	Idn, im a blonde, don't ask me that...
Can you breath out of your nose and into your mouth at the same time?	uh....
Do you have ninja skills?	hex yes!
If an orange is called an orange then why isn't a banana called a yellow?	I don't know....But i like yellow's
According to yesterday, today is tomorrow.	it is?
A day without sunshine is like... night.	I KNOW!! ISN'T IT KOOL?!?
I am nobody. Nobody is perfect. Therefore, I am perfect!	no you aren't....i am perfect
I have a secret to tell you..	what?!!?
I LOVE CHEESY GORDITA'S!	O MY FREAKIN GOSH!!! SO DO I!!! I LOVE YOU!!
*YOUR ALMOST DONE NOW!!*
Do you like fried chicken?	Yes
Why?	Because you probably like it.
Oh really?	Yeah!
That's nice....	Tottaly
Are you getting tired of this survey?	Nope
I knew you liked it	yup
Well then i guess i'll keep going!!!	WooHOOHOOO
Awww, darn your almost done...isn't that sad?	yup
i thought so...BYE!!!	BYE!!!!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

This is how bored i am...I made my own survey, and then answered to my own questions...

So yeah, today has been pretty boring....More like really boring...I went to go do my daily riding around the block on my bike, and then i went to swimming. But nobody else was there, so i was really lonely. But yeah, Everybody take my stupid survey and coment your results on this blog.

Well guess what guys?
I think im starting to like blospot better then xanga....

(Don't get to excited caleb....)

So it might win the contest, and i might just use blogspot from now on. But IDN yet, so don't get to excited.

So yeah, i really have nothing else to post...

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!

I shall leave you with my favorite lyrics from tfk's new album "the art of breaking"

At times I find my mind unwinds and I don't think when I walk,
Run into things and fall down
It's coming around again and I've found sometimes
I don't think when I talk
And put my foot in my mouth
And sometimes when I, I look at me
And wish I could be somebody else
Sometimes I throw myself and let go, but never no
Intention to see a picture of me and trap myself

All this time, we've been mislead,
...Does anyone care at all?

[Chorus]
Sometimes I fall asleep and then I lose control
I try to find my way out without letting go
And will I lose my mind if it comes back this time?
If i dont turn out perfect will you be a friend of mine?

It's coming around again and i've found sometimes I sit
When I should get up and just walk away
Sometimes I pretend and act like I do
But don't listen to a word you say
And sometimes when I start talking out loud
Should just shut my mouth and walk away
Sometimes I feel like maybe it's real and think like nobody else
Too close to myself and suffocate

Are you ready to crawl out?
Are you ready to take my hand and see?
Are you ready to crawl out?
From within the slow bleed?
From within the slow bleed?
From within the slow bleed?
Take this away from me

Hello again

2005-08-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

discover your dog breed @ quiz meme

The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz
OMG TAKE THIS QUIZ! IT'S AWESOME!

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.

You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.

You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person.

You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

wow that's a stupid quiz....

IM IN LOVE!

2005-08-07T18:29:00.000-07:00

IM IN LOVE WITH THE

GO GET ONE AT TACO BELL! SEROUSLY RIGHT NOW!!!
ahhh, im going crazy. i had sugar...and wow...i shouldn't post cause i might scare people half to death so i should go...and go i shall do and shall go and bye...

Which is better? cocacolla or dr. pepper?
	dr pepper
	COCACOLLA!!!!!!!! LIKG OMG!!!

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	XANGA ALL THE WAY BAB-AY!!!
	Blogspot is WAY kooler!!
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